Crazy week so far... crazier weekend ahead

I'm going to try to make this quick. Good news, I've been getting up every morning and hitting the gym. Bad news: I've been gaining weight b/c of the Creatine I've been using for muscle repair afterwards. I've put on 6 lbs in 2 weeks, probably all water weight. That's ok, after next week I won't take it anymore, just stick to the vitamin E.

Good or bad news (I don't know how I feel): I found out 2 days ago that Inese got married. That's pretty crazy seeing that this girl broke up with me less than a year ago b/c she wasn't ready to take the next step in our relationship. Whatever, probably a line. I'm sure she was already seeing that guy towards the end of our relationship. I saw him once, the weekend I got out of jail after The Incident. He was sort of a chump but whatever, it doesn't take much to entertain her. She's very simple so I'm sure they'll be a great married couple. She did give me some advice: If you think there's something worth fighting for, you shouldn't let it go. I do believe she was saying this b/c I completely cut off contact with her when she broke the news. And funny she should say that, I already believe in that theory, why do you think I didn't come back for more? What an idiot. Sure, I was upset when it happened, only b/c it came out of nowhere but it was definitely the best thing that could have happened for me. I was complacent and too comfortable in a relationship that was no good for me.

Bad news: I spoke with Jenny Wis last night and told her I couldn't talk to her anymore. Broke off all contact... hmmm... don't know if that was the right decision. I'm sick of her and her drama with her bf and the rest of the backwoods Wisconsinites she hangs out with. She's a smart girl in so many ways but stupid to continue to live there. I think she'll go away thinking that I was jealous that she had a bf and it wasn't me. Whatever, I could never date that girl. Goes out about 3 days a week and gets trashed. No problem with going out but do you have to get blitzed everytime? It's annoying and she acts small time. Her bf pushed one night and drives around when he's wasted and she still is with him. I don't need people like that in my life b/c I can't respect her anymore. Damn, that sucks, I really did care for her... it's just the mentality that I couldn't understand. I couldn't even be nice to her the last couple times we spoke. There's no reason for me to continue trying to be friends when I can't even be nice to her. And I didn't feel so bad b/c she said if I didn't want to talk to her anymore, she wouldn't be upset. The thing is, she said that and I know she won't be upset. I guess that's one of the things I enjoyed about her, I could always take her word exactly for what it was... no games. Too bad it didn't work out. I'm definitely sad about it.

Good news??? Amaya and her band of merry misfits are driving out to Chicago via RV this evening at about 11. OK, this is great news b/c I will get to see Amaya finally. You can't beat that news. However, she won't tell me any plans about what's going on for the weekend. She said don't make any plans. She doesn't act excited to meet my friends, I don't think she even wants to. That raises questions. Am I expected to hang out with her 10 friends for the weekend? I have no problem with that, I love meeting new people but it's the first time we're meeting, I was hoping for more alone time together. I envision her cell phone ringing off the hook this weekend while we're out together if the friends aren't around. But no plans, what's in store? I wish I knew b/c I know the city, she doesn't. It's going to be very distracting to me with everything that's going on. I'm afraid I won't be able to leave the impression I would like to leave b/c I'll be thinking about everyone else. There's just so many question marks as of right now, I don't even know what to think. And with all the bad weather, what if she doesn't even make it until Sat, could that happen? Shit, they're going to be driving a 16-person RV across half the country, anything could happen. Alright, needless to say, this is good news, I'm looking forward to it... just can't think about it too much. God, please let her make it. I want this more than anything.