What happened?

How did I get here? Right up until Sep 22nd, I didn't have a care in the world I was so happy with our situation. And even after that, my primary concern was for Amaya. It wasn't until the beginning of this week that things went completely crazy. From all the stupid shit I went through with Lizzy, at least she taught me one thing... run away from a situation like this. In the long run, it's only going to get you hurt more. I can't hide my feelings, I can't just turn them off like some machine. It's no surprise that my heart is still with Amaya. No one understands me. I took a phone call from her, it was stupid, I can't talk to her right now. I looked at her picture again. I'm sad.

Amaya, you said you loved me. What happened?