March Madness

A couple weeks ago, Amaya said that wanted me to read her journal. So I open up her page before I come over here to write a posting today only to find out that she says I can go fuck myself. It's just the way I wanted to start off my morning. (And silly me, I thought I wasn't going to have anything to write about today) The situation is that some guy over the weekend called me from a D.C. area code. It sounded like he was in a bar or something with a lot of people around and I thought I heard someone say Amaya in the background. Figuring it was her friends just joking around I decided to give her a call to give her the ha-ha, very funny. But when I got ahold of her she was in the middle of sleep. I thought it was weird b/c off all the places to get wrong number from, I got one from DC. So I called back and got this guy's vm that I really couldn't understand but thought it said Gary or Barry. I talked about it with Amaya the next day and she didn't know. I gave her the number and now I guess she's trying to find out who it is. So the reason she says in her journal to go fuck myself is b/c I keep bringing it up and/or I don't believe her. First, I don't even care, it's not a big deal to me. I just wanted to make sure that she didn't have some psycho after her but I guess I'm the bad guy for that. You know, I try to support her as much as I can b/c I know she's going through a tough time but that's bullshit that she turns around and says that about me. As traumatic as everything has been lately, I've tried my best to be nothing but supportive. I put a lot to the side for her that she doesn't even know. I spend a lot of my time in and outside of work thinking about her. She says she loves me but then she turns around and says stuff like that and it's completely unwarranted. I love her and that's why I put up with some of these things, everyone goes through tough times, you have to take the good with the bad. I know there's been a lot of bad in her life lately and I'm just trying to provide as much good as I can for right now. I hope she understands that I really do care for her.

In other news, I'm in striking distance to take 1st place in the tourney pool. I know there's a lot of games to go but I'm feeling confident as long as Duke loses and Louisville wins this next round. Keeping my fingers crossed. The pool is $900 for 1st so that wouldn't be some bad scrilla to get my hands on.

Mom loved the Tiffany's sun pendant necklace that Mike and I got her for her bday. We had the celebration at my place and it really worked out well. We had stir fry chicken with green/red peppers and cashews in this amazing marinade that my mom makes from scratch, served over rice. Grandma made her usual chocalate cake for dessert which is always good. My cousin Taylor said that my place is the coolest place she'd ever been in. I know she liked the place but I also know that some of her over complimentary tactics come from her mom. I mean c'mon, these people overlook Milennium Park, Grant Park, have Monroe harbor and the whole lake and the Chicago Skyline view looking west, you can't beat that no matter how many hottubs or bars you have in your place.

I guess my uncle and Rocco get along pretty well. They were texting back and forth after dinner. That's pretty funny. I think my uncle likes the fact that Rocco is a ball buster and he can dish it as well as take it. Rocco came out with a new line of houseware that my brother and I got to be the recipients of when my aunt came by on Monday night. The stuff is pretty nice and has a contemporary look. Just what my brother needed. All that poor bastard had one frying pan at his place.

Nick sort of pissed me off last week. Jarmon sent out an email how Mel sent him an email that was a little too friendly. Nothing too big but inappropriate in most people's eyes if you're engaged to someone else. Nick responded back that Jarm should fuck her before she walks down the aisle. I didn't think that was too cool and I let him know about it. Then he sent some sarcastic email back to me saying "preach it, brother". We've had this talk before. Jarm works next to her fiancee, their friends and that is not cool by any means to get involved with her. Nick's argument is that if it's not Jarm then it will be someone else. My counter is that so be it, let it be some other guy b/c we're not like that. We're stand up guys with integrity, we don't do shit like that. This is the second time that Nick has put that comment out there and I'm starting to wonder about him. That just isn't cool. He's starting to go off the deep end with the whole player routine. God, I need some stablility in my life, I feel like everything is up in the air everyday. I need to be able to count on my friends for being good guys, I need to be able to count on certain people. I just don't feel like I can count many people these days and it makes me feel lost. I'm about to say fuck it and just move away, I need a fresh start.