Past & Present... All in One

I started this entry during the 3rd week of December....
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I had a realization yesterday while on the el... Finally, after 29 years, I'm getting better at determining backgrounds of Asians when I see them. Walking through that el... Bam! Korean, that hot chick is Chinese, she's Phillipine, dude is definitely Japanese, you are so Vietnamese, I know... I am all over it, bitches.

So I've been on this great run lately of completely wiping people out of my life. No one is really safe. One day about 6 weeks ago, it just started... that is, me being a complete asshole to everyone. I'm sure even some of you out there will agree. And it's tough to stop b/c I'm really good at it. I guess what it came down to was I stopped giving a shit about everyone's petty shit they came to me with. I've always been pretty good at putting other people first but when you don't, it's funny to discover who's just all about themselves and who's the real deal. Maybe this has been a bad social experiment to take on just for karma reasons or maybe b/c it's just so close to the holidays but it's been sort of fun. I never realized how many people actually just waste my time. I've purged a lot of numbers from the cell phone these days and I feel pretty damn good about it.

Does anyone ever get that feeling to randomly punch someone. I get that feeling most when I'm standing on a crowded el. I just want to turn to the person next to me and plant one right on the button. But then I think on how I don't want to spend the holidays in jail and they don't give you presents in the clink, at least none that come with vaseline. And then I laugh to myself b/c hitting random people is pretty funny.

As my life goes on in this new position, I feel more detached from reality. I question myself all the time now on what is reality? What is my perception of reality?

I did something very, very, very stupid a couple weeks ago that completely zapped any inspiration or motivation to write anything new. It still bothers me enough that I'm not going to write about it.

NYE plans. What NYE plans? First year I'm not having a party... no midgets, no djs, no half naked women doing photoshoots in my room, no 10 person orgy like fun in the hottub... shit, what was I thinking not having a party?

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Hmmm, I don't know if I made a mistake bouncing so many people out of my life but I will say it's a lot quieter lately. That's ok b/c it's given me a lot of time to be nostalgic. That is, I've been going back to the more simple pleasures in life from a lifetime ago. Broke out the old school Nintendo, relived the good ole days. Then even dug around for my old Sega Genesis and got my brother involved. Oh yeah, we got our Toe Jam & Earl on. Now, for some, this sounds pretty geeky, for those of you who have played TJ & E, you know this would be a great way to spend a Sat afternoon in January especially with this shite Chicago weather lately.

What have I been thinking about lately:

-I should have been an optometrist (shit, I had to say that about 3 times to spell it and it's not even that difficult, I thought you were supposed to get wiser with age)... is it too late to go back to optometry school

-Boobs (Russ Meyer was a genius)

-How I've decided I'm perceived by females... Rebounder

-Wow, I have a very empty address book these days

-I can't believe my roommate and I spent over $1K at Cost Co yesterday and I still have nothing to show for it

-I can't believe my roommate scored 2nd row Super Bowl tix on the goal line for $700 a piece b/c the guy selling them made a mistake

-I want to write a children's book (and to do it without permanently damaging the little bastards)

-Boobs

-I haven't been pleasing myself lately, nor have I wanted to, something's wrong... I already called my doctor

-Everyday I wake up, where's the fucking sun?

-Patrick Swayze cutting a rap single has still got me worked up.

-Boobs

-I bought flaxseed oil pills the other day. Now there's a million brands of vitamins out there but of course I didn't read the label close enough and picked the brand that markets to menopausal women all over the label. Good job, E. At least I won't have to worry about hot flashes or dryness anytime soon.

-Wasn't even thinking about V-Day until I read someone's entry. Had a streak for 4 years where I got dumped the day before or on the actual day. But the next year after that (about 3 years ago), I decided at all costs I was going to break that streak so I surprised my grandma and took her out for dinner. Her husband passed away when my mom was 7 so she must have been in her late 20s. She never even went on a date with someone again. So I may sit there and complain about 4 bad V-Days in a row but what have I got to really complain about? She's close to 90 and has chosen to never see anyone again b/c she had one love in her life and that was enough for her. That just blows my mind. Still, I could tell it really meant a lot to her and it was special. It was the best Valentine's Day I ever celebrated.

What did I do last weekend?
Friday, stayed in sick.
Sat, football and Mex Dom, went out for literally a half hour and managed to dance like a jerkoff, 3 j-bombs, 2 k1-tonics, meet the gay dj who fucking rocked b/c he called everyone out on the mic since he was so wasted. I've avoided Inn Joy for a couple years now but that was too much fun, I'm going back again soon. And they played good/bad 80s music so count me in.

So what does this weekend entail for me???
-Friday: Well, looks like I'll be going to a work party, then Mystic Celt, Hye Bar and that stretch of bars tomorrow.
-Saturday: I'll lay low, watch game and play Tripoli or Mex Dom.
-Sunday: I have to be at Durkins by 11 b/c we have tables reserved for the Steelers and then the Bears game... AND they have $3 you call it... I will drown myself in Jagr Bombs, Patron and Flaming Dr. Peppers. That's right, move over jagr bombs, I'm bringing the flaming dr. pepper back into style. Thank the lord I have Monday off.