Lo Part II

Well, that about ends that. An hour after I wrote that last entry, Lo called up and told me she thought it would be a good idea if we didn't talk anymore. I guess that answers the question if I would have to let her go.

She really said this... "E, I hate to be like this, and this is going to sound so bad, but if you're not going to put out then we really don't need to be talking to one another".

It's statements like that why I think that girl is awesome. How can you not respect that?

Unfortunately, that is the case, I am not all that into her looks and I'm sure I'll be looked at as the big pussy b/c I didn't want to sleep with her but so what, my fucking life. As Erik Cartman once said "It's my body, I'll do what I want". hehe

L8a.

Lo

WARNING: This entry is a little mushy so continue at your own risk.

Lo is someone that I started seeing briefly but I was never that attracted to her physically. That's really bad to say b/c she is an attractive woman, plenty of guys think she's good looking, she's just not my type. The problem is I really like hanging out with her. She's a lot of fun, although, she gets a little too in your face at times. But you take it b/c that's who she is. She's real, on her own wavelength and she doesn't change for anybody, I respect that. I hang out with her b/c I know I'll always have a fun time and she'll make me laugh but I do spend more time with her than I should. I just want to point out that she knew from the time that I met her that I wasn't looking for anything serious and she said she was ok with that. But last week, she told me that she liked me and it made for a little awkwardness. Since then, she's mentioned it again. She also said she knew that I wasn't into her b/c of the way I act around her. And probably b/c I reject her moves pretty much all the time. But then she pulled a jealous move when we were at a wedding party last week that didn't sit with me too well. Especially when I wasn't even hitting on the girl that I was talking to, this girl was just one of my friends that she didn't know. She started in with the "What was that all about?" talk while she tugged on my arm.

I think I'm going to have to let her go and usually, that wouldn't make me upset but I do enjoy being friends with her. I brought this up about remaining friends and Lo wasn't really having it. She said that she's getting tired of me rejecting her (I guess who wouldn't) and she's not going to stick around forever doing this. However, I don't understand where the surprises are... Lo knew where I stood from the beginning, why would she try to get involved if she knew I wasn't going to be into her? Did she think she was going to change me? Did she think I was going to come around eventually? I have no idea. All I know is that I consider myself really lucky to have someone like her in my life and it's going to hurt if she doesn't want to be friends. At the same time, I would understand if she didn't want to continue contact with me if what we're doing currently is going to present a problem for her.

Stalking Ensues

Really quickly, I received the 'ole Private listed call at work yesterday followed with the prompt hang up as soon as I answered the phone. I wonder who it could have been. That chick probably has a voodoo doll made up of me by now with a bunch of pins pushed through my testicles. That might explain some of the tension I've been experiencing while jerking off lately.

For those of you who are familiar with the stalking ways, either b/c you have stalked or have been stalked, we know that this is the next step of stalking after a blowout... otherwise known in some circles as stealth stalking.